Traumatic Memories
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Snippet 137: S0ngD0g13
They say "don't let them in"...
Kaylee sat in her bedroom, eyes red from tears and her teddy-bear, Rupert, clutched in a deathgrip. She was shaking in the aftermath of another nightmare; at least, she thought, she'd managed to muffle her voice and not wake the whole house...
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"... Just close your eyes and clear your thoughts again"...
Aso couldn't sleep; she kept remembering... The Incident... She tried meditation, but serenity eluded her, rest eluded her...
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I have no heart, just ice and stone...
Aso, unable to sleep or even relax, did as she always had and wrapped herself in a veneer of strength, burying her fears and inner demons under the strong, unyielding Warrior she had to be...
She rose and started walking outside...
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... Made up of nails and teeth and bone...
Kaylee wiped her eyes roughly and snarled at herself to get a grip; she told herself that she was stronger than her fears, harder than her demons...
She threw on her coat and went outside; her room was too close and she needed fresh air...
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I can fake a smile; I can force a laugh...
Kaylee wandered without direction, and each person she met, she wondered if they could see through the false smile and fake cheer, to see the damaged, broken girl inside...
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I can dance and play the part, if that's what you ask...
Aso walked along under the moon, her feet carrying her where they willed as her mind twisted in circles and knots and her face betrayed none of her insecurities; if all the world were a stage, Aso certainly knew the steps to the dance...
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Weakness is a wound that no one wants to speak of...
Aso found herself sitting on the front steps of Houshou's house, of his house, in the silence of the night. No one was awake, and no one was around, so in silence, Aso let herself into the back yard and in silence let herself break down and cry, let her weakness out...
Before her eyes Aso saw the other Carriers, the Villagers, Houshou, and James. Aso saw the people she'd hurt, and the people she'd helped; there were more she'd hurt than helped...
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... And cool is just how far we have to fall...
Kaylee found herself sitting against the side of the pilothouse aboard the Polly, tears streaming down her face and the grip of one of her LeMats in her hand...
"Look how far I've fallen... I'm too weak, too damaged... It hurts too much..."
Kaylee saw her friends and family before her eyes and smelled lavender and honeysuckle on the wind...
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You know it's gonna hurt so why would you want more-ore-ore?
You know it's gonna hurt so why would you want more-ore-ore?
You know it's gonna hurt so why would you want more?
Aso felt Houshou's arms, and James', enfold her in a gentle hug as James whispered to her...
Kaylee felt her pistol pulled gently from her hand and felt ghostly arms crisscrossed with razor-scars wrap around her, and heard a phantom voice whisper in her ear...
"I know it's gonna hurt, but you're worth fighting for."
They say "don't let them in"...
Kaylee sat in her bedroom, eyes red from tears and her teddy-bear, Rupert, clutched in a deathgrip. She was shaking in the aftermath of another nightmare; at least, she thought, she'd managed to muffle her voice and not wake the whole house...
...............................................
"... Just close your eyes and clear your thoughts again"...
Aso couldn't sleep; she kept remembering... The Incident... She tried meditation, but serenity eluded her, rest eluded her...
....................................................
I have no heart, just ice and stone...
Aso, unable to sleep or even relax, did as she always had and wrapped herself in a veneer of strength, burying her fears and inner demons under the strong, unyielding Warrior she had to be...
She rose and started walking outside...
...................................................
... Made up of nails and teeth and bone...
Kaylee wiped her eyes roughly and snarled at herself to get a grip; she told herself that she was stronger than her fears, harder than her demons...
She threw on her coat and went outside; her room was too close and she needed fresh air...
.....................................................
I can fake a smile; I can force a laugh...
Kaylee wandered without direction, and each person she met, she wondered if they could see through the false smile and fake cheer, to see the damaged, broken girl inside...
..................................................
I can dance and play the part, if that's what you ask...
Aso walked along under the moon, her feet carrying her where they willed as her mind twisted in circles and knots and her face betrayed none of her insecurities; if all the world were a stage, Aso certainly knew the steps to the dance...
..................................................
Weakness is a wound that no one wants to speak of...
Aso found herself sitting on the front steps of Houshou's house, of his house, in the silence of the night. No one was awake, and no one was around, so in silence, Aso let herself into the back yard and in silence let herself break down and cry, let her weakness out...
Before her eyes Aso saw the other Carriers, the Villagers, Houshou, and James. Aso saw the people she'd hurt, and the people she'd helped; there were more she'd hurt than helped...
.......................................................
... And cool is just how far we have to fall...
Kaylee found herself sitting against the side of the pilothouse aboard the Polly, tears streaming down her face and the grip of one of her LeMats in her hand...
"Look how far I've fallen... I'm too weak, too damaged... It hurts too much..."
Kaylee saw her friends and family before her eyes and smelled lavender and honeysuckle on the wind...
....................................................
You know it's gonna hurt so why would you want more-ore-ore?
You know it's gonna hurt so why would you want more-ore-ore?
You know it's gonna hurt so why would you want more?
Aso felt Houshou's arms, and James', enfold her in a gentle hug as James whispered to her...
Kaylee felt her pistol pulled gently from her hand and felt ghostly arms crisscrossed with razor-scars wrap around her, and heard a phantom voice whisper in her ear...
"I know it's gonna hurt, but you're worth fighting for."